guten tag , how are you ? oh don't worry , it's ok ! The viruses, it's 'mortal'! That also arrived at me with the virus ' trojan ' I am happy that you saved your files.
Gill's photos in sarajevo? Yes of course , I saw them and I 'took' them, Gill is SUBLIME , BEAUTIFULLLLL , i love those pics !!! Gil on the red carpet (Sarajevo) that pleases to have new photos and videos. the videos too on this site : http://www.sff.ba/ba/sff_web_tv .
the video on youtube : Gill's video at the airport of Vancouver is brilliant also , even pics !
It was very warm here , but today the weather is bizarre, it makes more freshly !!
à bientôt , très bon week end ( have a great week end)
It's ok. To tell you the truth I also have a problem with my computer. I think it crash too. Right now I'm just using my cousin's Itouch so I could respond in your message. Anyway I just graduated and I feel fine. I miss talking to you already. I have to go because I got to sleep already. I won't forget you either. Take care! ^_^
Hey I am just going to send you my answers to your email because it's so long just like yours and I don't think I can cut it. Anyway I love the song, "Fever" in your page. I used to sing it. Hahaha... I'm so sorry for the late reply. Do you have a yahoo messenger because I am going to add you in mine so we chat if we're both online at the same time. ^_^
coucou , ça va ? ( how are you doing ?) hollydays are good? the weather is hot , GREAT !!! photos ? i don't know , it's a friend who send to me ( msn) i like those too , Gill is beautiful .
i bought the book : the complet xfiles .............Very beautiful book !
Yesterday I was on youtube and I saw a video on the episode of the xfiles: sign and wonder, it is really very funny. When Scully and Mulder, arrives in front of the church of the priest......... ha I do not know how to explain it!!! I am going to go on youtube, I shall send it to you, because I do not know any more the name of the video, yesterday I looked at the DVD (sign and wonder) and it's true, it was necessary to see it!!
à bientôt , bonne soirée
Hi there, about All Things there is a discussion about it now in Haven. I guess I'm going to comment but I'll get back to it tomorrow the discussion of the camoe of the 2FBI agents in Fringe is so long and I just finished reading and commenting on it after reading all of it. I miss our chat. Take care always. ^_^
Hey thanks for the comment of my picture. It’s not really that good enough especially compared to Gillian.
1) Never Again: Yes I don't like the episode that much but I don't think it's out of character(OC).Others say that it's OC because they can't accept the fact that Scully did something that is not expected of her. People think she's perfect but she's not. People think of her as a perfect person so they expect her to always do something right. She is having a lifetime crisis. Wait, would you mind telling me what's her lifetime crisis then because I can't remember? I want to watch it but not on the net because it would cost me expensive electricity and the episodes on the television are still just in season 2. I'm not saying that whenever a person is having a lifetime crisis they should get drunk and slept with a guy they picked up in a bar but people with lifetime crisis are in a lot of stress and you can't really expect someone to always do something right. Yes I am a Mulder person and I did hurt for Mulder but if you want to slap him, I just want to punch him. Yes I'm a Mulder person but we all know that he can really be a jerk, dense, a loser and an a**hole. I know that nothing happened with Scully and Ed Jerse. Remember from our messages to each other, we talked about that we are so controlled that we always prevent ourselves in doing something or committing mistakes. I believe Scully is like that too primarily I believe it's because she wants to make people proud. You know build a career and distinguished theirself. But that doesn't mean they don't want to become the person who breaks the rules and be wild. After seeing the episode for 3 times, I have to admit that I really had contemplated why Scully did those things and I promise myself that I would never do that. I don't hate the episode anymore but it's still a sore topic. I don't hate it anymore because I broke my promise this month. I hate myself for doing something I'm not supposed to do. I can't say what I did but I did something wrong. You know in the future I might do what she did too. I'm tired of being the person who follows all the rules to make somebody proud. I want to be liberated. I want to do something wild. In exchange I'll hurt the person that matters to me the most. That's the point of the promise. I don't want to hurt the person who matters to me. I really hate myself a lot. I don't want to remember it. I don't want to talk about it. I want to buried it somewhere and pretend it never happen. So I'm going to say never again. NEVER AGAIN. I just wish I really mean that.
Another thing yes Everything is not about Mulder. I agree with that but I want to think and believe that it's his way of saying that it's my life too. What you did almost killed you. I care about you and I'm concern about you. I mean we expect him to say, "It's my life too because I love you and I'm jealous. I mean I am a shipper but I am beginning to doubt if they REALLY LOVE each other and that if Mr.CC had really plans of them ending up together ever since I've read a NOROMO discussions about 6 or 6 topics I believe. I can debunk all the discussion and still be a shipper but I don't have any evidence to back my theories. All I have are just assumptions. It just seems to me that they just ended up together because the fans want them too that he doesn't have a plan to really have them end up together. Well my real point is just Mulder just said it's about the table because he couldn't reveal his feelings for her, if he really has feelings for her. I have to tell you that it took me so long to reply because this is really a very sore topic to me that everytime I dwell on it, it just hurts me a lot. Another thing is it is indeed Scully's life so who is he to react that way with what she did. You know that's what I said to my friend and my relatives to but it's their life too because they expect me to do the right thing for a better future. Last year I did something wide that made my friend angry and it made me think that she couldn't accept that part of me. I told her I wanted to talk to her and she did let's talk later. I did told you before that I have trust issues and when I got into college, I started trusting her and when she said that to me last year. It seems to me that she rejected me and that she can't accept that part of me. So I told myself, alright if you don't want me, then fine. At that time, I made myself disappear in the resort because it was during our 3 weeks immersion. I really did my best to disappear. I walked all over the place to find a very secluded area where no one can ever find me. I believe I have my small body bag with me, my mp3 and my phone. There was a long chair and a table. I lay down on the chair and listen to the mp3 and fell asleep there. To them I disappeared for 3-5 hours. I left to disappear because I would never force myself on someone and another thing is I feel really hurt. I am more comfortable being alone and I have delayed lots of things so much because that’s already the third week of our immersion. I feel the need to have some space and be alone for a long time.
Me and my friend are fine now. We talked about it. The thing is she wasn’t repulsed with what I did. She was angry because she thinks that other people might make fun of me or bully me because everyone thinks of me as a very wholesome innocent person but the thing is I don’t care what other people thinks because I’m the one who only knows the real me. A lot of people believe that I’m the kind of person who would never do such things that would degrade their self or wild and liberated things. Sorry to disappoint them but I’m liberated and wild but I’m not the kind who would myself and act like a SL*t or wh*re. My friend had asked me if I regretted it then I said no. I was having fun. If she can’t accept that it’s fine but this is my life and I’m going to do what I want. Actually I’m not the only who did that wild thing last year, there was also my other close friend. So my friend was actually angry at both of us. My friend’s name is Carol and the one who did it too is Elaine. Elaine asked me if I have a chance to do it all over again, would I change it? I said no. I’m sure that maybe you are already curious but I’ll tell you when I meet in you in person. And I’m still a v***** if you know what I mean. It’s not a very wild a thing at all but to others it’s something not accepted by our norms and tradition. We were simply college students doing something wild, having fun including our one professor and unsupervised. We were all just looking out for each other. Our professors were just 2-3 years older than us. I’m not sharing much because we had this pact that what happen in our immersion stays in there but it was pretty scandalous to others that some actually had told some of their friends who weren’t there. Gosh this is becoming a longer conversation. You know I never told anyone about what we did last year in our immersion until now. And the only person I told about what I did this month is Carol.
I also love the atmosphere because I believe it showed that they both care for each other because they're always subtle with their feelings so that's my only indication. I believe it was a lot of angst but it’s just underneath the surface. Just like you said but I like it.
2) All Things: Did you remember the part where Scully is getting dress Mulder’s bathroom while narrating something and when they tried to show Mulder, he asleep in his birthday suit peacefully. I think that’s the reason why I believe they slept together. I don’t want to believe that they did it because they were lonely. I want to believe that they did it because to me it’s they consummated something out of their love for each other or maybe I just want to take what I can get. Haha.. I mean silly me. They are always working together for the last 7 years and they never did it! Damn it! That’s just complete torture. Hey I’m not frustrated I’m just expressing myself. Anyway so if I have to accept that’s the time they only did it? I’ll take it. I mean do you think we could really expect something graphic but allowed from them if there’s going to be XF3? Anyway you’ve got a point about what you said that they were in Mulder’s apartment but the shadowman said that she invited Mulder to bed. So they never did it? That’s just sad. I am laughing right now. I didn’t like the episode mainly because of her involvement with her former professor but who am I to judge her when I know that I could end up getting pregnant by an old married man because I’m attracted to them, I don’t have a father, and it’s such a wild thing to do. It’s the cycle of life, it’s a phase of life I have to get through but I really wish I could just jump over to the next stage or phase or I could prevent it from happening because it’s wrong.
Some of the words have * because I feel rude, disrespectful and crude in using it especially in public so please excuse my French.
Gosh I feel embarrassed because my reply is very long and you’re busy.
If I am going to watch these 2 episodes, I want to watch it with you because you know how I deeply felt about these two. ^_^
I'm so sorry it took me this long to answer you. I got busy and very guilty for indulging myself with a a game. Anyway I'm back. I'm so glad you have fun with your brothers. Wow! I wish had brothers. You're a member of the theatre group, do you act? What do you? It make me remember of my highschool days. We have lots of school plays. I'm not a great actress but I can act. I always wanted to try acting back then. This is weird but I've never heard of Samosas, Pakoras, and Momo. There are lots of Asian food in here. I think I'll try to find that out. So you didn't get much sleep because of the ships? Mmm... makes me remember of Titanic. I just saw the movie the other day and it still makes me feel the same.
Belated Happy Birthday to your grandfather I'm sure he enjoy it and he's very happy. My grandfather died 7 years ago. By the way I always wanted to learn soccer. I used to practice what I watch on the movies.
The weather here is unpredicatable. Sometimes it's very hot, sometimes it keeps raining, and we keep having storms but we're all fine. So you are tanned show me your pic. What do you think of my pic? I think I look ugly I don't know what's wrong with me. Goodluck on you exam I wish you got high grades.
Yes I'll be graduating. I don't have classes anymore. I am just preparing my documents to pass for the clinical graduation and the real graduation. I'm going to attend reviews for the nursing board exam and then review again for the national medical assesment test if I want to become a doctor. I actually found an agency that help filipinos find school abroad. I plan to go there when I already the result of both exams.
About the project, I believe that you do have to sign up so I can claim you as my beta reader. I think it's for formality sakes. I'll be sending you of what I wrote maybe at the end of the month. I'm sure you're scared because it's your first but I believe you'll be fine. Don't worry I won't pressure you. Just take your time. I'll send you right away so you'll have a lot of time to work for it before the deadline. And if you have questions I'll help you. I'm sure you're going to discover your own specialty. I'm so happy you agreed to beta my work. It's not my first time but I don't have a beta reader before so I'm pretty scared myself of what you're going to think with what I wrote.
The picture of Piper I saw in facebook is just a surprise. I don't even know if it's really her but I think it's her because she's got some of Gillian's pictures. Anyway who ever is the girl she's just so beautiful. I'm glad that Gillian's keeping her children from the public because she needs to protect them. Anyway thanks for adding me on facebook. How did you find me? I did want to add you but I know your email.
As for the snogger thing they make me crazy so I don't think about it. I watch some of the videos from youtube but I hardly read the comments. As for Mulder and Scully, we all know they're meant for each other and that they're meant to be together forever but there are still questions in my mind and it's very frustrating because I don't want to assume or to theorize what's accepted in their situation. I simply want the truth so I hardly think about them and I don't read fanfics as much as I did before. I have lots of scenarios for them that my phone is already full of saved ideas that I just don't know where to start. And I know what you mean about trying to think like them. For me it's easy to think like Mulder because I'm so much more like Mulder but I find it hard to try thinking like Scully. A lot of people doesn't care about XF but I'm pretty glad that in little ways I am somehow making an impact. My cousin doesn't watch X-Files but I am aware that she did catch me a lot of times watching X-Files on the TV, browsing the net about XF, downloading songs about XF, getting pics and fanfics of XF. She made a video for their project and she downloaded the XF's theme and use it in some part of the video. She's great with arts. She's smart. SHe can draw, she's very creative and artistic. The video is a great job and she did use the song so well. I also made some impact with my other cousins which is great. Last night me and my distant cousin watch IWTB together and she enjoyed it surprisingly and she keeps complimenting that they look good together and that Mulder and Scully are perfect for each other.
I believe that youtube wants to change the channel design but you can choose your old design because that's what I did. I don't want to change it because I really made an effort in my page. It took me a lot of times to make it look like that for a long time that I've used lots of different XF pictures then match it with the colors. It's really hard. I've never heard of the protest but it's okay because it's so long since I've logged in youtube. So it's like I'm joining the protest without even knowing it.
I love the biglight design. I wanted to change my page but I don't have any idea what pictures to use and it's hard to match colors with the pics to blend beautifully and besides the hallway scene is really my favorite. So I won't do anything for now until I can think of something to improve. You know I've been spending so much time about XF that I decided I need to do something productive. It actually makes me feel guilty but I always think of the outcome of my obsession. We are of the fans who can be considered loyal to the show and to the actors after all these years. I feel what you feel being the fan of a show for a long time. We could have met earlier or the other fans. It would have been very nice if we are discussing the episodes with the other fans while it's still showing. It feels great that way because that's how I felt with bones when I am talking to someone who is an X-Files fan first. The key to being active on other boards is making a schedule because I do that. I'm active in lots of sites that I have to visit more than sites to check mails, answer comments watch videos, participate in discussions and I also got my own pages to check for my friends and cousins in there. Make a schedule like a day for homework, day for XF, time for chores, time for sleep. It had help me actually.
I'm loyal to MSR but I did get to read some other pairings accidentally like some of the fanfics I've got starts being involve with someone else and then ends up with MSR. Gosh I hate it! I hate it a lot! It's like watching the Never Again episode. I really hated it a lot because I really got hury for Mulder. All things is a great episode but something happened between them right but I can't stop myself from thinking that something only happened because they were lonely. It did come out from the Trust no one episode in season 9. The guy said there to Scully that she invited Mulder in her bed because she was lonely. You know if something is going to happen between I want it to be meaningful and loving. I know they love each other so much and they care for each other deeply but still. Anyway I don't wanna dwell on this because it's done and it's frustrating me. I've read Fragile and I know about Leyla. She was mentioned on wikipedia. I've read her interview I found on the net. I actually have read lots of her work. Fragile is a good fic. It really has tackled topics about rape victim's experience. So she died just before the shoot? I just felt sad for her. Remember one of Scully's line that said something like this don't look to much cause you may not like what youre going to find out. That's not the line but the message is something like that. I think she's right. Did you know that I don't even understand what noromo means so I have tried to look it up on the net. I found out about it and I found something else. So I don't think much of Mulder and Scully anymore the way I did before. I can't explain right now but I'll explain next time. I agree with what you said that it's still a difference to actually having someone next to you. I do have close friends but I'm more open to those who are away from me. Like you, Shirin and my other friends. I sometimes I wish I could see you. I don't think my parents know about my addiction or obsession until I started acting on it. I did told you before that I'm a secretive person but now I've learned to open up. In the past I usually keep these things to myself but people knows what I like based on my actions. So some of them I believe knows. Besides I'm not the only one here with addictions.
As for the series, I believe I didn't see just 2 episodes because even though Mulder is not there, Scully is still there and I kind of like Reyes because I love the part that she's openminded and sensitive to things like seeing and feeling something. I can relate to her because I am like that too. It's great to watch something I can relate to. It fascinates me more. Your not a bad phile at all. And another thing is if I am going to write fanfics, I need to know everything there is to know about XF so I need to watch all the episodes. To tell you the truth I am actually considering of re-watching all of them even Never Again and All Things even though those episodes hurt me deeply or frustrates me.
Hey I did mention that I just saw Titanic yesterday, right? I really love Titanic and I know you are aware of that because of the songs I uploaded in biglight. Yesterday I just downloaded some fanvideos of titanic and now I download some of the songs in the movie. I'm going to upload some of them on biglight.
I'm so sorry for the late reply. Have a great week. ^_^
I am doing well so far. How's your grandfathers birthday? I know it's late but happy birthday to him. Anyway I've never heard of Kiel Week but I am very interested. How is it? It's been raining here too. Last week there was a hale storm. I am actually considering of playing in the rain because it's been a long since I've done it. But I got wet because I was trying to catch a bird but I never caught it. I was hoping I could help it.
Snogger? I use to be. I didn't even know what the word means when I am one. It's funny isn't it? I became one because of the videos from you tube that are pretty convincing but I know what you are talking about that some of them are actually saying that Piper is Davids. They were my friends too but I kind of think that it's too much to assume. I wonder if they've seen Piper. She looks like Gillian and her father as well. She's so beautiful. Gillian is beautiful too but Piper's beauty is more of one of a kind and very exquisite. I found her facebook and I copied her one profile picture. She's got her mom's lips. The part of her that was taken was the left angle only but you can see the similarities. I don't believe that they had a secret affair but my assumption is maybe they did have a relationship in the past and it didn't work but sometimes I think that they never did have something. Someone told mentioned to me before that Fox had forbid them to be involve with each other whatever that means. I used think about it so much because I've got nothing to do until I realize that I don't really want to be reduce to that kind of person. I want to do something productive instead of just snogging and I actually believe that it's wrong. To insist that someone will be better if she ends up with someone we like. After all we don't other people to do that to us, right? It's just hard for me to see act brotherly to Gillian especially with all the videos, interviews and pictures they have together. I guess I'll just concur with the idea if I saw them and meet them in person. And there's just too much inconsistencies. The issue about it just makes me crazy so I just let it be.
Anyway I already sent something for you to check about the xf big bang if you are interested just tell me. Thanks a lot for everything. It really means a lot to me.
As for the situation in the house, they are not really that bad. They do love me, they are just normally strict and it's just what they do when they are angry. I can't blame them for the way they treat me because I know that my Grandfather is much strict to them because he used to be a military officer. When I was born he became soft. That is why my Aunt is more strict when it comes to me compared to how he treats me. You know I've already wrote my reply to you a week ago but I can't find it so I don't really remember if I already told you this and that. You are right by the way that it really had a big impact on me. I actually realize how important it is to have a good upbringing but not necessarily perfect. I mean we did have studied the stages of development, developmental tasks, etc. And my plan is after I graduate in Nursing. By that time, I already have graduated, passed the board exam and study medicine on the States. I would love to work for myself and pay for my own tuition fee.
Right now, I still haven't done my video yet because I'm so busy and I still have about 6 mails to reply to. I really want to be a part of the XF3 Campaign. I really believe that I have a good idea but I'm too busy right now with school stuff because I'll be graduating. So far I've finished the requirements I need that is why I get to surf the net and answer your mails right now.
And about the vids, it never occured to me that they will be that much. I just remembered watching and downloading the ones that I love watching. Somehow I am a bit of myself because some of the great vids are not available anymore and the best part is I have a copy. I didn't just keep them for myself. If anyone is interested I'll share it or send it to someone. If this could help. You should try watching my favorite vids or checking my playlist.I've seen lots of Gillians interviews. Gosh! She's really fun to talk to, amazing and quite funny as well. I found sites just like the xf_bigbang. They have all the kinds of fanfic with different pairings and scenarios. A lot of them are educational and most of the authors are really that good and really took an effort in writing and researching to write a case for Mulder and Scully to solve. By the way I only stop reading the fics if they pair Mulder and Scully with someone else. It just hurts me a lot. Now you think I'm silly. I'm sure you're wondering how I'd manage to read fics that much. I've really got problems last year that made me close myself to everyone around me and the only thing that comforts me is Mulder and Scully. Before I got to watch IWTB, I saw FTF on Star Movies a lot of times and made me wonder of XF series. I can't believe it but I did forget having finished all the series. I feel really embarass because I told someone before that I didn't finish the series and I only got to finish it last year by watching my Aunts DVD. When what really happened is I did finish it. I never tried reading the fics until last year. The only thing that makes me happy is Mulder and Scully. So after watching everything, the series and movies, I tried the fics. I didn't care I just continued gathering the fics. Whether it's out of character or not or Mary Sues because of some them are. But I do erase the ones I don't like and hate right away.
Anyway broken counts for XF. Besides a lot of people did download the song because it was used in the movie right? My phone's capacity is 1 GB too. The videos can be formatted that will fit the phone and one video size is just 3 MB or so. So it's small. Anyway I haven't read Blood ties before but I'll try too. Do you have any idea about what it is? Anyway there this very long story that I kind of enjoyed reading because he changed Mulder and Scully's life ever since they met until the last episode. It's very long so I don't mind telling you how it started. The story started in 2003. In the story Scully committed suicide because she and Mulder have lost William. Well I don't really want to insult it but it's out of character already isn't it. Scully is catholic and killing yourself is an immortal sin so I firmly doubt she'd do that. She's too rational, practical and sensible to do it but I continued reading it anyway. Doggett had an accident and died. So it was really lonely for Mulder and Reyes because they're the one standing until Mulder bumped to a girl who is a kind of a psychic or genie. I don't know what she is. She and Mulder had a discussion. The discussion with her saying, close your eyes and when you opened them. You are back from the start to change everything. Mulder opened his eyes and found himself on the basement at the day he first met Scully. The story is divided in 9 parts basing it from the 9 seasons. So you get the idea now. The story started again from day 1 but Mulder is aware of what's going to happen to them. I love the series but I kind of like it too because in there he did know that he ended up with Scully and his denseness and stupidness and had manage to correct some of them. I'll give you something like they got married and get to have kids. He had prevented some important people from dying. And this is the funny part. He prevented Scully's abduction. You'll really laugh if you get to read it. But don't rush yourself. It's the longest fic I've ever read. The title is Family G-man and you'll find it here. (www.geocities.com/nurseryfiles/mulderscreek.html).
oh my flu is much better now. all I did is take care of myself, drink lots of fluids, eat healthy foods and have enough sleep and rest. I believe that people are just scared of the swine flu because a lot of people are affected and so many people have died already. our school had 2 cases so it was quarantined. i didnt any classes but i did a lot of things because we have a clinical graduation on july. we just started our classes again this last friday.
just like you, biglight and xf keeps me awake. I hope your having a great time.
Hi Triangle, I am so sorry but I got tied down with a lot of things but I already saw what you wrote last 2 weeks I believe. I'll come back and write more later. You said it's alright for you to become my beta reader, right? I'm so glad thanks a lot. I wish you go easy on me because I am not that good. Is this okay with you? (http://community.livejournal.com/xf_bigbang/1972.html) ^_^
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